How could i be so stupid? How could i let myself get so wrapped up in The Wave? How did I not see what The Wave really was? What blinded me that i couldn't see what I had become? I can't believe that I, along with everyone else in Gordon High School let this go as far as it did. We were all so involved in this "game" that we forgot what The Wave was supposed to teach us. None of us realized that we had become the Nazi party that we had detested in the beginning of the week. Each of us had questioned the sanity and humanity of the Nazis, but we were just as bad as the Nazis in Germany during WWII. We excluded people from The Wave, and had looked down upon the people who weren't part of it. All of us were caught up in the rush and the unity that The Wave had given us that we forgot we were all individuals. I had changed so much because of The Wave, but I had changed for all the wrong reasons. Each aspect of The Wave I enhanced, i became; i was determined to be part of something, and i didn't realize what I had become, and what I was doing in the process. In my mind i turned Mr. Ross into my leader, and I his bodyguard. My mission was to protect The Wave, and stop anyone who appeared, at all, a threat to it.
I am ashamed and disgusted in myself. I deeply apologize to all those whom i have hurt these past couple of days; i truthfully never meant any harm, all i wanted was to to apart of something great, but i know now that that was not what The Wave was.
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